Surely after that I was turned, I repented; and after that I was instructed, I smote upon my thigh: I was ashamed, yea, even confounded, because I did bear the reproach of my youth.
Ephraim continues his confession, describing the progression of repentance. 'After that I was turned, I repented'—the turning (conversion) precedes repentance. This reflects the ordo salutis (order of salvation): regeneration precedes repentance and faith. God must first give spiritual life before the dead sinner can respond. Then comes instruction—understanding the nature and severity of their sin. This leads to deep remorse: 'I smote upon my thigh'—a gesture of grief and shame. They bear 'the reproach of my youth'—acknowledging lifelong sin from their earliest days.
The phrase 'I did bear the reproach of my youth' shows that Israel's sin was not recent innovation but long-standing rebellion. From their youth as a nation (the wilderness generation), they had been unfaithful. This honest assessment—recognizing deep, systemic, lifelong sin—is necessary for genuine repentance. Superficial religion addresses symptoms; genuine repentance acknowledges root corruption and total dependence on God's grace.
This pattern appears throughout Scripture. Conviction of sin (through the Holy Spirit's work) leads to repentance, which produces godly sorrow, which results in changed behavior (2 Corinthians 7:10). The order matters: God must first work in us (turn us) before we can work out our salvation (Philippians 2:12-13). This protects the doctrine of grace—salvation is God's work, though it engages our whole person in response.
Historical Context
The exile forced Israel to confront what they had denied during prosperity—that their sin was serious and God's judgment just. Stripped of temple, land, and political power, they had to face reality: they were rebels who deserved punishment, not victims of injustice. This painful self-awareness was necessary for restoration. Similarly, the Holy Spirit convicts sinners of sin, righteousness, and judgment (John 16:8) before they can genuinely come to Christ.
Questions for Reflection
What is the relationship between God's work of 'turning' us and our response of repenting and believing?
How does genuine repentance differ from mere regret or shame—what characterizes true godly sorrow over sin?
Why is it important to acknowledge our 'youth'—the deep, long-standing nature of our sin—rather than viewing ourselves as generally good people who made mistakes?
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Analysis & Commentary
Ephraim continues his confession, describing the progression of repentance. 'After that I was turned, I repented'—the turning (conversion) precedes repentance. This reflects the ordo salutis (order of salvation): regeneration precedes repentance and faith. God must first give spiritual life before the dead sinner can respond. Then comes instruction—understanding the nature and severity of their sin. This leads to deep remorse: 'I smote upon my thigh'—a gesture of grief and shame. They bear 'the reproach of my youth'—acknowledging lifelong sin from their earliest days.
The phrase 'I did bear the reproach of my youth' shows that Israel's sin was not recent innovation but long-standing rebellion. From their youth as a nation (the wilderness generation), they had been unfaithful. This honest assessment—recognizing deep, systemic, lifelong sin—is necessary for genuine repentance. Superficial religion addresses symptoms; genuine repentance acknowledges root corruption and total dependence on God's grace.
This pattern appears throughout Scripture. Conviction of sin (through the Holy Spirit's work) leads to repentance, which produces godly sorrow, which results in changed behavior (2 Corinthians 7:10). The order matters: God must first work in us (turn us) before we can work out our salvation (Philippians 2:12-13). This protects the doctrine of grace—salvation is God's work, though it engages our whole person in response.